I said I was going to get healthy this year. If you recall my post from last year about how I started creating this blog, it was because of the 12 days of Christmas activity I wrote about. This year, my physical health was included and it was one that was burned up. As part of that process, that would mean it is in God’s hands. Which is great… except it has been one of those things I have prayed for his help with for years.
Candidly, I am 90 pounds heavier than I was when I got married 13 years ago. It is hard to type… it is embarrassing. I was not underweight when we got married. In fact, I was hovering in the middle of my healthy BMI range. Some facts: I was 23 when we got married, I have had no medical issues to cause this, I had a son in 2020 and was already up 65 pounds when I got pregnant, I did keto in 2018 and lost 40 pounds in the process. My motivation while doing keto was self-disgust and as soon as the complements started coming in, I stalled my weight loss and eventually gained it all back and more.
So, why this blog post? Because God said so. Yesterday, I crafted a schedule that I believe would allow me to make healthier choices. It started today with getting out of bed on the first alarm and walking for 20 minutes. I hadn’t planned ahead for music or a podcast, so I walked in silence (around my kitchen counter because it is cold) and prayed. I asked God why there are certain areas in my life, including this one, that He has not intervened. His response was clear, I have idolized the love of others over Him. Weight loss has been about looking good according to others, not about my ability to serve him better or bring him glory.
I reflected. What does bringing God glory from my weight loss even look like? It is ultimately bigger than that. It is living a healthy life for Him where he is at the center. How will people know that that’s what I am doing? I conveniently forgot to cancel my subscription to keep this blog up and it’s a great way to actually make my word from last year come to fruition.
Here I am, on a random Wednesday in February, taking my first steps (both literally and figuratively) toward a healthier life and closer relationship with God.
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